3/30.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Not being perfect. 

I have no idea where the extreme desire in me came from that makes me strive for perfection, but it is there. Maybe it is because I am an only child or maybe not - who knows. Regardless of the reason I have always wanted to be perfect; perfect looks, perfect grades, perfect behavior - the works. I am terrified of people being disappointed in me. I am terrified of disappointing myself. I, as silly as it seems, am the one that pushes myself to the brink because I want to make others proud. 

And alas I am here ... I am a senior at Texas A&M, graduating with a degree in something that wasn't my plan, with an incredibly mediocre GPR, who is 5'3" and a size 6 and has screwed and drank and messed up more times than I can count. 

So ... what now? 

Should I just go ahead and quit? Nah. Not me. I push through. I have faith that the things that have happened are from God. And I have faith that I am going to be just fine. I won't ever be perfect. No one will. And that is something I have just had to accept. 

Do I still strive for perfection? Hell yes I do. But falling short daily is something I have become accustomed too and I definitely have to forgive myself each night for to keep myself sane. 

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.