PS: Sorry for epic failing and not writing yesterday. Life got in the way as per usual and until I got home today and laid in bed for a nap I didn't realize that it had been a while since I had written.
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
I am sure there are a lot of things I could write here but none of them are as big of a deal as what immediately came to mind when I read the question.
A little background info:
My uncle, mom's brother, lives in Arizona - my family and my grandmother live in Texas. My grandma was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukemia the spring of my freshman year in college.
Back into the meat of it ... Right before my sophomore year started I needed to get my wisdom teeth pulled. We made the appointment and all was well but since my grandmother was going to downtown for chemotherapy treatments she needed to find someone who could do that so she could take care of me. She called my uncle and asked him to come into town for two weeks solely so she could get a break and get me situated. He showed up and then left after two days. He dropped the keys to my grandmas house off while my mom and I were both at work and told my dad, "He just couldn't do it." Since that day we haven't spoken. Nor has he spoken to my mom. All the while my grandmother has passed away and my mom has battled breast cancer.
So what exactly do I need to forgive him for you ask? I need to forgive him for leaving us. For not being there when we needed him around. For being such a selfish, arrogant ass that he hasn't had the nerve to even call his sister when she went through a breast cancer diagnosis and a double mastectomy. For failing as a son, brother and uncle and not coming to my grandmothers funeral.
I don't know if any of it will ever happen. I have so much anger inside that it is almost impossible to even think about him without my blood boiling. But that is it. I need to forgive my uncle but I don't know if I ever will or can.
Back into the meat of it ... Right before my sophomore year started I needed to get my wisdom teeth pulled. We made the appointment and all was well but since my grandmother was going to downtown for chemotherapy treatments she needed to find someone who could do that so she could take care of me. She called my uncle and asked him to come into town for two weeks solely so she could get a break and get me situated. He showed up and then left after two days. He dropped the keys to my grandmas house off while my mom and I were both at work and told my dad, "He just couldn't do it." Since that day we haven't spoken. Nor has he spoken to my mom. All the while my grandmother has passed away and my mom has battled breast cancer.
So what exactly do I need to forgive him for you ask? I need to forgive him for leaving us. For not being there when we needed him around. For being such a selfish, arrogant ass that he hasn't had the nerve to even call his sister when she went through a breast cancer diagnosis and a double mastectomy. For failing as a son, brother and uncle and not coming to my grandmothers funeral.
I don't know if any of it will ever happen. I have so much anger inside that it is almost impossible to even think about him without my blood boiling. But that is it. I need to forgive my uncle but I don't know if I ever will or can.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
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