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30 Days of Truth
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for. 

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit .

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on my smile.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (write a letter.)

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn't live without, because you've tried living without it.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without. 

Day 17 → A book you've read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 → Your vies on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn't done in your life.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter).

Day 25 → The reason you believe you're still alive today.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?  

I think if everyone is honest with themselves they will all answer yes to this question. Maybe there will be varying degrees to which people thought about "giving up" ... for some it may have been suicide and for others it may have just been losing the determination to find something better than a minimum wage job. Either way everyone has had that moment where they say, "Damn I just wish it was easy. I just want to get out of here. I wish it was over." 


I definitely have been in that place. Though I have never attempted suicide or anything of that severity I was in a bad place for a while. I constantly was weighing my options - wondering if I just gave up on chasing my dreams, if I quit school and moved home and let go of what I had always hoped for that my life would just magically be simpler. Clearly that wasn't the path I chose to take but the thoughts still find their way in sometimes.


I find myself thinking how much easier it would be if I just gave up on trying to be something better. If I just settled for who I am now and what I have and didn't strive to be smarter, prettier, wealthier, etc. In reality none of that matters - I just want to be happy. And giving up doesn't make me happy. I learned that lesson the hard way at times. 

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.