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30 Days of Truth
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for. 

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit .

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on my smile.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (write a letter.)

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn't live without, because you've tried living without it.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without. 

Day 17 → A book you've read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 → Your vies on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn't done in your life.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter).

Day 25 → The reason you believe you're still alive today.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so. when and why?

Day 27 → What's the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.  

There definitely isn't just one thing I would want to change. I am impatient. I am unkind. I do not always tell the truth. I boast and am proud. I am selfish and conceited at times. I hold grudges and seek revenge ... 

The list goes on. 

So the something I hope to change about myself is more like a lot of somethings. A lot of somethings that I wish to change in a way that I could be more like Christ. I wish to be patient, kind, gentle, honest, unselfish, and forgiving. The qualities that my Savior possesses are not to be taken lightly and things that I genuinely wish I saw in myself more. I struggle with the ways of the world on a daily basis. I give in so often to things that bring quick delight and a moment of pleasure rather than seeking fast His kingdom. 

I guess that is really what I want to change if we are being totally honest. I feel a tug on my heart - especially tonight for some reason - to passionately pursue Christ the way He has pursued and loved the church. I want to bring glory to His name and make His presence known while fulfilling my purpose. 

Never an easy task. Never something I seem to be good at. But maybe that will change. 

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

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30 Days of Truth
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for. 

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit .

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on my smile.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (write a letter.)

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn't live without, because you've tried living without it.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without. 

Day 17 → A book you've read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 → Your vies on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn't done in your life.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter).

Day 25 → The reason you believe you're still alive today.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so. when and why?

Day 27 → What's the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?  

Seeing as I can't get anyone pregnant .... what would I do if I got pregnant? I would manage. I would be happy. And I would continue to live my life as I am living it now - as much as possible that is. I have a man in my life who loves me. Who would support me in my choice and who I would have standing by my side the whole way. I have parents who would do the same. Along with the best friends I could ever hope for. 

Of course having a baby before you are married and settled isn't an ideal situation but for me I don't think it would be the end of the world. I want to be a mom one day and if in God's timing it were to happen sooner rather than when I had planned I wouldn't have any reason for complaints. He knows what He is doing and I would just have to trust Him. 

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

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30 Days of Truth
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for. 

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit .

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on my smile.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (write a letter.)

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn't live without, because you've tried living without it.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without. 

Day 17 → A book you've read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 → Your vies on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn't done in your life.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter).

Day 25 → The reason you believe you're still alive today.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so. when and why?

Day 27 → What's the best thing going for you right now?  

My friends and family. They are the best thing I have going for me 24/7, 365 days a year. They love me unconditionally, support me without faltering, speak the truth even when I don't want to hear it, make me smile/laugh when I am feeling low, help me be more spontaneous and less uptight, and so many more things. 

They are always there. 

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

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30 Days of Truth
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for. 

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit .

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on my smile.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (write a letter.)

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn't live without, because you've tried living without it.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without. 

Day 17 → A book you've read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 → Your vies on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn't done in your life.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter).

Day 25 → The reason you believe you're still alive today.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?  

I think if everyone is honest with themselves they will all answer yes to this question. Maybe there will be varying degrees to which people thought about "giving up" ... for some it may have been suicide and for others it may have just been losing the determination to find something better than a minimum wage job. Either way everyone has had that moment where they say, "Damn I just wish it was easy. I just want to get out of here. I wish it was over." 


I definitely have been in that place. Though I have never attempted suicide or anything of that severity I was in a bad place for a while. I constantly was weighing my options - wondering if I just gave up on chasing my dreams, if I quit school and moved home and let go of what I had always hoped for that my life would just magically be simpler. Clearly that wasn't the path I chose to take but the thoughts still find their way in sometimes.


I find myself thinking how much easier it would be if I just gave up on trying to be something better. If I just settled for who I am now and what I have and didn't strive to be smarter, prettier, wealthier, etc. In reality none of that matters - I just want to be happy. And giving up doesn't make me happy. I learned that lesson the hard way at times. 

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

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30 Days of Truth
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for. 

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit .

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on my smile.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (write a letter.)

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn't live without, because you've tried living without it.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without. 

Day 17 → A book you've read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 → Your vies on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn't done in your life.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter).

Day 25 → The reason you believe you're still alive today.  

Oh there are a few ... :


 First and foremost my Savior. Though it isn't an easy thing to come to terms with I have grasped the concept that the Lord can take me whenever He chooses. Clearly my time has not come yet. And until it does I am incredibly thankful for each day He continues to bless me with. 


My parents. Through every scraped knee, every broken heart to every failed test and slammed door they have never stopped loving me. They are unconditional - I am their world. And I know that they would jump in front of a bullet or a bus for me. I owe them my life ... literally. And I wouldn't still be here without their support and their love. 


KT, Livi, B. Best friends are hard to come by - especially ones that tell you the truth no matter what and stand by you even when you don't listen to their advice. I have the most genuine bests in the world. They are the three women I want by my side in any and every situation that comes my way because I know they will be there no matter the circumstance.


Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

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30 Days of Truth
Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for. 

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit .

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on my smile.

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (write a letter.)

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn't live without, because you've tried living without it.

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without. 

Day 17 → A book you've read that changed your views on something.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20 → Your vies on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn't done in your life.

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter). 

This one was way way harder than I thought it was going to be. I am going to need a while to work on it so I have decided to skip it. I guess that kind of defeats the purpose but who knows. 


Instead here we are with the current alphabet of my life:
A. Aggie Football ... tomorrow.
B. Boots are possibly my favorite thing about winter.
C. Coffee is even better when it is cold outside. Truth.
D. Dr. Hanson - I need to make an appointment with him for my back asap.
E. Eating. All I can think about it eating; I am starved.
F. Fit Foods is delicious, healthy and a savior for when I don't want to cook.
G. Gut and glutes are very sore from working out. 
H. Halloween is over thank goodness. Least favorite holiday ever. 
I. iPhone has been driving me nuts lately. I need to go talk to Verizon. 
J. Jogging a lot of as lately. I am up to almost 5 miles. Yay me. 
K. Kids. 5 year old bday party tomorrow. So many kids. And it's my day off. Help me.
L. Livid with the VW dealership and the warranty company. I want my car back!
M. Money. Seems I keep getting paid and my bank account balance isn't increasing.
N. Ninjago Lego's are the new thing for little boys. I know TOO much about them.
O. Official. Relationship was made FBO. My friends are just as excited as me :] 
P. Pumpkin pie. I want some. Maybe I will make some. Hm. 
Q. Quiet. I'd like some of that every now and then. Maybe one day. 
R. Roundtop is all I have been dealing with at the store. Ugh. It cuts my hands!
S. Stylin' ... I look pretty good today if I do say so myself. 
T. TK ... enough said :] 
U. Unprepared for what is to come; ready for it but so unprepared. Make sense?
V. Vacation. I could use one. Tahoe should be fun. Maybe somewhere for my bday.
W. Working a lot. Babysitting seems to be consuming my whole life.
Y. You, reading my blog, you make me smile. 


X. and Z. can screw off. Peace. 


Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.